Updated: Dec 24, 2019
I’ve been in my feelings most of the day wallowing in self-pity, thinking of where I am emotionally/financially, and pondering over decisions I’ve made in the past that’s contributed to a portion of my current anguish. Lately, I’ve been learning a tough soul-shattering lesson about settling. Settling (in any capacity) is a full-time distraction causing you to drift further and further off course until you feel like you’re lost at sea. In settling, there’s a loss of time, peace, total surrender to God, sanity, etc. The list goes on and on.
As I’m smack dab in the middle of my pity party, the Lord reminded me of His faithfulness and how each lesson and every single heartbreak/rejection /financial hardship has drawn me closer to HIM! I’ve learned to depend on HIM when everything around me seemed to be crumbling. He reminded me of Psalm 119:71
My suffering was good for me, for it taught me to pay attention to your decrees!
So I perked up and began to thank Him for what He’s doing in my future and for keeping/protecting me and my children from dangers I could have put myself in and those I was unaware of. I thanked Him for allowing me to survive to tell of His greatness and how He delivered me and my babies from the snare of the enemy!! Needless to say, my pity party soon turned into a praise party!
I don’t know who this is for, but I feel so strongly that there’s someone who is about to make a decision based on a level of discomfort and loneliness....don’t do it. Pray, WAIT and seek Godly counsel before you make ANY decisions that could alter your life. Calculate the risk and assess if what you’re desiring to do is beneficial to you and those connected to you. Distractions never seem like distractions until they’re done distracting you. Trust me I know this all too well.
I always say I can’t teach or lead where I’ve never been but I most definitely will be obedient to God and speak when He says to speak. Whatever I can do to keep others from making the same mistakes I’ve made....even if it exposes me and makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't know about you but my deliverance is necessary and If I can just help one person along the way, my pain won’t be wasted.
💖Wait on the LORD. Be courageous, and he will strengthen your heart. Wait on the LORD!