So I own this gift, really its one of the few things I feel I know how to do well...the only thing that comes naturally and flows like warm honey over your favorite decadent dessert. I've always felt I was perhaps born within the wrong time area or region because I am the odd one of the family. I'm the one who doesn't completely follow the rules or conform to the traditional career path that's smiled upon...I'm from the south, Selma Alabama to be exact. I've wasted so many years trying to figure myself out by attempting to line up with characteristics and standards others believe I should conform to. Taking on dead in jobs and searching out careers with good pay just too keep myself and family afloat knowing this wasn't what God called me to. I was desperate and thought I needed finances more than I needed to obey and accept the will of God for my life. Pretending never got me anywhere, so I finally gained the courage for all its worth to be exactly what God has called me to be...DIFFERENT. I realized that ministry is not only in the pulpit, but the church Christ seeks is the one without walls.
The late Dr. Myles Munroe once said "Education, in itself, doesn't guarantee anything. It is your gift that is the key to your success. If you're educated but have not developed your talent, you're likely going to be depressed, frustrated, and tired. You will hate going to work on Monday mornings. It is your gift that is the key to your success. The second part of Proverbs 18:16 says, "A man's gift…brings him before great men" (NKJV). You don't realize that the gift you're sitting on is loaded. The world won't move over for you just because you're smart. However, when you exercise your gift, not only will the world make room for you, but it will also pay you for it. Anyone - yourself included - who discovers his or her gift and develops it will become a commodity."
That gift I speak of is the gift of words that flow so beautifully from my heart and soul directly to my fingertips. I feel most beautiful and oddly sane within Gods will when I'm able to release what God has placed on my heart. I see myself in a place that I'm not quite sure when or how I'll arrive, but I know I will. Each day of my life there is a pulling...a pushing to release words that could help heal the broken. Words that will tell my story without shame or guilt so that others won't have to take the route I've taken. Words that will set my children and their children and their children's children free by granting them the opportunity of seeing their mother display honesty and bravery. I want my children to know that I'm a real woman who loves God and is finally not afraid to make mistakes. It took me a long time to arrive here to a place of rebirth where I understand there's purpose on my life. My deliverance has always been on the other side of obedience and acceptance to what God has called me to do. I'm finally there...full, happy and ready to empty myself...waiting to pour out all I've survived to and share my map to wholeness through Christ to a broken world of shattered girls and women that are placed in my path. Happy birthday to me; in the end Broken Women WILL Win!